Thursday 17th jan went back to sch for counselling lesson and it was a dayw here the remaining groups would present.

eileen's group interviewed a 14 yr old girl who had a prob with her family..eh..u can say dysfunctional one. amidst the presentation were clips of the interview eileen had with the girl and it had an impact on me.

she was only 14 and she scored straight As with her studies in the top girl sch. she had a brother but he was or rather, she was a total difference among her family members. she was in fact the most extraordinary girl i'd ever seen out of so many girls at the age of 14.

she aspires to be a PMinister and she's musically inclined. her table was soooo neat and her book shelves were so stacked and packed with books. of course, base on those above, you would know that she's such a neat and responsible girl. But however, she had a singapore flag, aswell as books and magazines of lee kuan yew, how to be a CEO in 10 days, 100 most successful men and women, etc.

You would have guessed that she supports PAP, and she wantsto be someone successful...and also at a young.

she feels awkard with her sch mates because according to eileen's group's inference, she cant click well with kids her age not doing the same thing as her, aka bimbotic girls who reads fashion and gossip magazines, or even those who only eat sleep study games. she's matured for her age. However,

she doesn't like her brother. she had all the attention from her parents until when her brother was borned and it seemed that she was just one stranger living with that happy family of three.

she hated and despised her brother as he is of total opposite and yet the parents doted on him over her.

yes i agree it's unfair. somehow i was in this mode of agreement and sentiment. i guess i had the same feeling as her but just a lil better than her. i was glad that i was that way.

but however, it made my day a gloomy day. somehow that day was a day of questioning of what life is and why cant mine be an interesting one.

friends is a problem and studies is another. cant relate to others is one problem and confidence and self esteem are another.

i need to have a closer friend