hmm...yesterday..till today was a nice day... nice morning and i had a nice sleep. though sleepy cos not enough of sleep yet, still...i love my sleep. i can sleep till tommorrw's sun shines on me tonight.. haha!
ok...nothing much..just felt that today's weather was great.. rained and had cold wind..


oh... you read the previous post? i think it's quite true..i do somehow..like guys like that sort. haha! as in...i'm intersted in all kinds of guys..esp thos who looked 'princely', those with the looks of rich, smart intelligent look, and those who has refined taste look. i definitely dun like guys who are those ah beng ah seng... cos 1- they dun look refined and 2, i dun want my status to go down with them. haha! though i dun have a high status, still i'd like to think of myself as one. hahaha!!!


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oh right! i dreamt of a very very wierd dream yesterday...i mean..the dream was meant to be updated yesterday...

erm...i kind of forgot the sequence...but here's how it went... i rmbed talking to ting yun/hui..in a place..like...some aisle. open spaced level one..and it's white... there was this open space...and the aisle had these walls... not those big whole pieced wall. but.. it's like long thin walls btwn each other so it's like..there's gap btwn each thin walls... i'll try to draw on e graffitti wall on www.facebook.com. :D

den i was going after someone..prob e twins..den i bumped into BREZ!!! i was like...hmmm quite shocked...i guessed. he got the surprised look too!! i was too happy to say anything. so it's like we chatted alil.. when i guess someone ran pass and pushed him to the side...some trench beside those walls i mentioned. but i dunno why..i told him something like..oh my..becareful.. so srry rushing off to somewhere..den...i tried to pull him...but den... duno what happened i need to go off to somewhere.

i guess it's faceboook..i added him and saw his pics...and wierdly..he appeared in my dreams. lol!!

den..i was on this train...yeah.. mrt. passed angmo kio..and after taht..dream changed to kembangan..but it over looks this really really large vast view of the field. and along the field was some construction. so there's green and yellow patches..of soil. so on e train....i saw many SRJCians. all weraing pe tshirt. so i was wondering...

den i saw........Jane.....teaching MASS DANCE!!!!! oh my god!!!!!!!! it's so.........what the hell!?!?! i mean......on the plains and so many practically like...some 2 schools of 800plus pple>? it's really big! and i was sort of enchanted by e mass-ness(i knw theres no such word) so i blur blur...stood up from my seat and went over the opp seats to kneel on the seats..so u can picture me looking out like some little kid. i was shocked. and yeah..i saw jane waving to me...asking me to join them...but i was hesitant of her signalling..cos i tot she must be calling out to some other pple. and behind her....some support group...and pple include Alex?? yes... Alex He!!! goodness...why would he be in e pict!!?? anyway..there's somemore pple..like.waht vincent/ prob not him..but it's some pple i knew.

and i alighted at kembangan...hmmm the whole view of the train and pple...like those drama..dey would shoot e film from the top left so it overviewed the train with soooooooo many pple stepping out.... as if it's back to the past eh... like i think..the time when china began to accept western stuff from England? ah...i'll draw again..remind me.

so it's like...there were many ple alighting and theres some..underground thingey.... cos before i slept..there's this show... called 'au revoir shanghai' a hk drama on ch 55 8pm. and Jin Dachuan was fleeing from Gu ChangCheng cos he was being chased after for his life. so yeah..Jin was hurt by abullet and somehow...i ran with him...and a group of good pple mainly consisting of the main characters of the good side, Nie Jin（Supergood ex traid leader), ManHua(his daughter), Xiu(a lady's husband accidentally killed by NieJin).

and we were running away from the assassins... so we passed thru some restaurant(those kind in e olden days) and went tothe back gate. there's this staircase leading to the 'exit' but becos Jin Dachuan was hurt...he cant climb those stairs. so all those fit ones went up and grabbed the rope nearby. we tied it to the other side so that dachuan can use the rope to climb up.

i know this is quite dumb becos dachuan was hurt and he stilll has to use the rope which was even more difficult!)

so while we were fixing it..the assassins came and amongst them there's awoman. and she grabbed manhua and brought to the back...and taking out a knife with 2 ends, she said..so u want to tell right? let's see if u still can hear our secrets...forgotten wht e ral content ws.

and den she used the side with asmaller knife(there's a long and a short knife in 1 knife) to cut the eardrums of manhua's. it's more of scrapping around the eardrums. and of course..blood was seen.....i think i was done for it too...i bled i think................couldnt rmb.

so what does all these signifies? dat what u see and how u interpret will mean something but it's unconscious. ah...that's rubbish...prob there's another meaning..but for e time being...i like the part whre i saw e greenery...and srjcians enjoying mass dance...and the thrill and scary part when assassins were coming for ur life. e suspense...

btw..i've straightened out my thots..i still thinks that studies is much more impt than impressing guys i like. and more impt than liking guys that apparently have no interest in me....LOL!!!!

rofl!!

today's a bad bad day. I saw frankie and i asked him about results...den he said it's up on the net. so i decided to check my grades after sch.

today was a councelling class, so as usual we had a role playing session. and so coincidentally, lyn was my client again. i think i'm not good at councelling cos lyn is so serious about it and for me, i take it as a normal thing. and i'm trying my best to jot down impt notes as an observer( which apparently i always cant do it properly. i feel so indebt to lyn cos i was her observer and she's the councellor and i'm supposed to write alot of stuff of what she said. i'm slow. i cant catch the fast words.)

ya becos she's so serious, she poured out her innermost feelings. i was quite appalled by her reaction. i mean..this is good cos she gets some feelings locked up, released. but i tot i was a greenhorn to councelling still.(although i'm very good listener and 'councellor' muahaha!)

and yea...true feelings came out and i panicked, insearch of absorbable material.

i tried to salvage it but..yeah...it din work cos 1-time's to short and 2- i tried to be a smart alec. argh!

twice!!! twice!!! and it happened with me!!! how embarrassing for me to face this. cos i would think i caused her to reveal her true feelings till that point. and i tot i was some kind of a 'jinx' cos it's twice!

well..i shall see the next time when lyn is councelled by sam. haha!!! and see if the prob lies with me or not. i'm too....serious? lol! dunno...hope it's a session to bond our friendship and not a session to drift us apart.

so yeah...after sch, i went to check out my results... i felt relieved that i din fail my exp psych. but i'm....i felt lost when i seee 'n/a' for my anthro. that means i failed..right?? and meredith said that i have to retake it..and i've to pay extra 1500$ for that.

1-time wasting

2-money wasting

3- embarrassment

4-extra brain cells dying

5-destroyed my plans for my future. i had it all planned out for my student mapping!!! damn it!


i'm very sad and i kept thinking abt it when i was walking to the bus interchange. and how am i going to face mom when i meet her at taka for lunch.

well...it din take long to steer away from that sad thot...cos i was reminded of 'reframing' from Tim's lesson. But...when i told her about giving lyn that duck fridge magnet, she got furious..and said that the duck was our collection and she wanted it back so much that she kept reprimanding me.

i almost cried....probably of the result and the session i hd.. but...stil...anyway

iahve to find means and ways to get it from her

sorry lyn..will compensate you with another gift~

ok..i'm starting to stress. book review due next week and i've not done any.. py1102 lab report due soon too.. lab report for py2112 oso...argh.

life sux. not keen abt uni anyway.

Today went to Lynette's house to 'celebrate' her belated birthday. it was supposed to be on 15 aug...and her house was a 3 level terrace...cool!

anyway..we played the latest game set called " Wii " it's really a nice game.. cos you hold the controller and you're not sitting dere to play..but dere's sensor to detect your action..so it's as if you're in the game.. it's the coolest game i ever saw!!!!!!!!!!! that must have cost a bomb!

technology is so advanced now even games are so that sophisticated. anway.. i like that game...

so yeah..i just realised that Patrick games and added the 4 of 'em... funny guy they said..but...who cares...until i really talk to him...den probably i might just think differently.

yeah..dey talked abt mikael's gf too..and damn...wasted my time playing games and not doing hmwk? i ought to punish myself..and today i wasted a totally good day!!! argh!! i think i'm going to fail and not be able to pass up my work on time..i'm still stuck on that damn Braitenberg Vehicle book review!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

anyway...that inst din call..argh.. he's suppsed to confirm with me whether he's going for tmr talk or not lor! damn him.. irresponsible.. guys....as always...

urhm.....oh ya! 2 days ago...i saw this guy that was going to ssdcl...and for one moment i tot he was Nic.. i 'tio chua'. den look at his body again...hahaha!!! he's a bigger size version of Nic. lol! Nic is skinnier.. hahaha!! no la..smaller build that's all..that guy i saw had more 'fats' hahahaah!!

so sian... everyday blog..and no one reads it... :(

oh my......on the 10th i got a fever and a sore throat...now......sigh...a severe loss of voice and lotsa phlegm....my fave doc said it's infection at the larynx.. that explains my loss of voice..haha! if they dun hurt, hahahaha!!! i'll definitely love my voice! hahaha! it's super funny when i laugh..cos i tend to 'zao xia' hahaha!!! this doc is good..unlike the doc at lavender..he sucked..sucks and will still suck. he take about...5 sec to listen to my breathing only! wait..i din even breath properly to let him know what's going on! and i cant get rid of that smirk on his face when i first saw him...damn his face..what's wrong man? why did he have that smirk....ah..dunno la...dun want to patronise him anymore...even though how feverish i am. i'll still go back to my fav doc.

today...had driving lesson..and argh..damn it.... i ought to think about my driving skills... i sucked at looking out for hazards and at observing safety..i am sure that that will cost alot of points and the reason for my failure would be all those safety checks. i'm glad that i did my vertical parking nicely...and yes...i had a wonderful time with the same inst. hahaha! he was such a joker... i know his name le..lol! How H L...aha


hmm...oh ya...i dreamt wierd dreams again.....i dreamt about Jennifer(my colleague), Mee Yahn, Christina(all colleagues) my mom and i went to m'sia. den jennifer asked me to help her buy some wonton mee for her 2 kids and her...but i only bought 1 wonton mee and 1 peanut sauce-d wonton mee, forgot hers....and i even wrote it on the styrofoam package which is which...with a chopstick stained with charsiew colouring.. loL!!

den jennifer came down and asked why din buy..so she bought 1 fishball noodle with some dark sauce...i think it's pork sauce..lol! she's quite a plump lady...so...that pork sauce...as expected...hahahaahha!!!

but after that...i dunno why...i was in this taxi...going around this hawker centre..it's something like the temporary hawker cum market at chinatown. but the hawker stalls are diff...lazy to describe.

den it was just a short trip...around the market...it's not that big...just 1 round..u should just go there to see how big the chinatown temporary hawker looks like den you know what i;m talking abt.

and guess what? that old taxi driver wants me to give 4 ringgit plus for the taxi fare!!!

i was like?? what??? so i pleaded him...and told him that i got no money and those money are my hard earned money...really literary.... and inthe end..i think i gave....a few dollar/ not 4...but less...

i sometimes wonder why my dreams are so wierd...and they are occuring more often dan i expected...stress....i supposed...nv talk to pple for long time...no confidante... sobz sobz...loL!!!


oh i learnt new korean lang... Olma Yeyo---(i think) how much

Yeppyo--- Beautiful

muji muji--- 非常

Kaye paye pok(i think it's spelt that way)--- scissors paper stones. lol!!!

oh right.......time to reveal my wierd dreams to all. it's been so often that oalmost every night i dream. this they say is nota good sign becos u will not get enuff of sleep. But they are jsut so wierd and so good to explore that i always look forward to sleeping. heee~!

yesterday!


i dreamt myself with the rest of my friends, including Glenn NG, clarissa, basically pri sch friends and others i cant rmb. so we were told to cut this piece of paper. and it's to tear this portion out like those consent form? eyah.,.but this has got smaller width like,2inch. but this paper is no ordinary paper..it's got plastic component in it...so i had a hard time tearing it. the tcher said that it has to be in straight cut..so that means no accidental tearing...no zig sag..blah blah. oh..and it's actually not a consent form but some gift grapping plastic..those if u're careful, you'll tear and it will side track....
yeah..i had prob with it...and it's only me!!! damn..i tried to ask my friends for help but they just looked at me and say..sorry u do yourself...or i dun have scissors... pls! they have it ok! if not..why they can have a nice cut and i'm still struggling? i tried very very hard not to tear until it was crooked...but it was impossible of course..i tried my very best by tear properly but the plastic paper din allow me to do so. so i was panicky...cos time's almost up and i have to pass uP! at the very last min..i saw on my table with a few gadgets,tools pencils..colour pencils..and it's almost like those D&T tools..i saw a PEN KNIFE! yes! when i wantto reach for it...argh! the teacher said. it's time and i had no choice but to give to her...

she saw mine.... it's wavy and at the end, it's a super sharp pointy finger like projection of the error. something like below.. the edge...
__ ________}
/ /
/ /
/ /
//
/


so the teacher saw it and crushed and threw it away...! i was really sad that time and was angry for crushing away my paper.... and next she asked me for some doc...i forgot what was it but after that...we all were dismissed and she gave me this 2 certs...when i 'm in e car front seat. it was orange background with white a4 size doc on it. it was laminated somemore! and she said that my cert would be that...becos i din managed to cut that paper properly...that's why it wasnt used to put it on my cert. others had theirs beautifully laminated and decorated...and mine 2 white doc...it's like..cheating me? and not appreciative of what i've put it.

i was so scared! i was so scared becos the teacher din want to give me a chance to do it again. she din budge and she din show a bit of facial expression. i was begging and begging until so hard that i started tearing. yes..i was tearing in the dream setting...begged..cried...pulling her ...pestering her...just to ask her togive me justt his chance and i sweared that i will do good. but she din reply...and in e midst of begging and crying....

i regained my consciousness...yes...i was crying in reality too. it was just too sad that i cant take it. not just tearing..but sobbing..those hiccups you get when you cry?? yea...i dunno why i cried in reality.. i guess this dreams reflects my life now.

trying to get some help from others but they wont lend a hand... and the teacher was nonchalant abt me...sigh... helpless~
yes..that's the 1st time i ever woke up crying and sobbing that hard.

yeah..now! this morning....i dreamt abt myself...stting in a car with this girl..i dunno who and Justin Ye. Yeah..that magician in SR. he was talking to me and we enjoyed each other's company. just as iwas talking....i saw Lucas riding his wait.....it's pushing his bike at the side of the road...i wanted to call out to him..but somehow..hmmm wait..no..i waved... waved to get his attention. but too bad, his mini eyes din give way to me. haha!!!


so i was in the car trying to get to this destination but it had to go round this sqarejunction before reaching... like...going about a square garden before reaching it when just going straight to that destination would do the trick. dunno why..the traffic arrows are like that.

so i reached this place...i think it's the bball court of Nan Chiau High Pri.. the old sch... and i saw Gwen, Brint..andrew? and some other councillors.. around 5 pple in agroup walking across the court...they were talking about babies... yes...wierd i know...

and yea..Gwen was pregnant? and someone else was pregnant too! my goodness....

and becos dream's wierd...the setting all changed...and it's some coffe shop at some place...you have to carefully tread the green slope to get to the shop.

so i heard a baby cry? some one's baby was born..but it wasnt Gwen's or that person....no one knew whose baby.and dunno who was carrying it...and Gwen and group were saying..it's Yeelee's.

i was like..what????? i'm not even pregnant in e first place! so heck la..went to pick that baby up.. it was...........................................ugly looking? my first look at him wasnt that nice. oh btw..i tot it ws a him..cos he looked like one... but guess what.. it's not that small.. it's big sized...someone said it's 15 years old liao.. i was( persona) like what the hell? sure or not? he's got inflated chest, short black hair...distorted face...distorted smile? and fat....heavy too.

in a nutshell..it's a demon. so me, gwen and group sat at that coffee shop to feed the babies...*babies..so that means gwen gave birth...she's not yet supposed to give birth but yeah..dreams are wierd*

so it's time to move off to some where...the hall.. it's like school time.. school bell..time to move off for class.. haha! and when i looked up the slope, i saw the baby coming down??? yeah.. or was it someone else...and i carried a big bag... as in.. literary big...horizontally rectangular and its like...1 metre by 40 cm by 10 cm.. cartoon decorated...and it's super super heavy..dunno what's inside..probably it's all the stuff of the baby.


so we moved off...and when queueing up outside this hall..and besides it was the grass...someone handsome ran past. it was someone i knew but i forgot... and i kept looking at him until this guy said,' why look at him? he's not that handsome...he's not the president(council) or ...( iforgot what he said). He's just a leader...running around..."

and wow...guess who said that! Brez L.!!!! Oh my goodness! he's back in my memory...lol!!! it's been a long time since i last saw him..and now he appeared in my dream! i was so excited..as i looked at him... :)

yeah..so i went to mhss hall...and sat in my class..almost the front. others' were settling down too... and in frontof me...sat this girl called Eileen from NCHS. my pri class mate.. how wierd dreams are! they can bring u the oldest memory to present!

so she said..how was the baby? ok?? blah blah..and i told myself, 'oh........i see..so she was the one in charge of giving me that ugly baby.!!! she could give me a nicer looking one!! " and i told her that him*(the baby) was t errible and etc...(i forgot) But she told me that it's not a he ...it's a *she!!! i was like................WTH??? the features of the baby resembles totally like a guy!!! and ut ell me it's a girl??

now..that explains the inflated chest i tot... hai...lol!!!

so the dream now take me to me, my mom and my bro in a Mac.. and she was i think..snatching some fries from me?? i forgot.. probably telling me off of something..and i was so angry that i said she was the same becos she herself did it the sam way... i was really angry. and i huff-ed away...walking down clemenceau road near the scacred heart church...waiting for bus 851. of course..we wre walking the side kerb for e lookout. and 875 passed and that jolted me of that dream i dreamt many months..like 1 year ago??

i shall narrate briefly becos it's such a long post now.

so yeah...i was going to a new sch and the bus route was far and arduous. i had to take several bus and mrt rides to get there.. so it's a long long journey. i rmbed that i tok a bus to this mrt...and that place was dark..cos it's still in e morning. and i went down this mrt underpass with others... it's a long walk in e underpass...and the whole place was stranger to me. and somehow...it was a route to CJC..but den...it ended up at some roads tht was quite deserted..like..those highway in msia..no pple pass by one and it's hot and humid and i had to walk a dist before arriving to sch.

and while walking...i saw the place morphing i think..and when i reached the sch.. it turned out to be some balinese..or some picturesque greenery with stones and pebbles and waterfall. it's really those games in PS,where you see stone path way leading u...water..and green leaves and grasses... it's really cooling and soothing. and guess whatschool was that? SR! ROFL!

how wierd!!!

Aiyai! what a rotten day to be sick!!! yesterday had sore throat and it felt it was on burning streak! i tried swallowing my saliva..but...it's just like a knife cutting thru your throat, trying to pry open it. and yesternight was hell of a torture for me!

my whole body was burning but yet, at the same time, i felt sooooo cold! tried covering myself with blanket and wore socks..but still it's freezing into my bones. i felt i was like some 80 year old old granny with super backaches and those bone aches...e bones at my neck, shoulder and waist..oh! and my feets too, were so achy till i cant sleep well and i dreamt abt this dream that was...an added perssure to my pain. i am conscious in a way i know what i'm doing- cant sleep well and was tossing in bed, cold and trying to cover up myself with blanket. but unconscious becos of the dream. How ironic was that! conscious yet unconscious....

yea..and i had to resort to pulling my eyelids up to get my super thick jacket to cover myself. and yeah..that jacket was put there for months just besides my bed. nv touch it... haha...and to think it can actually put to good use this time!!


so this morning, i felt soooooooo hot! *eh..not what you think ah!* it's so hot that i felt myself burning! all parts of my body was burning! the 'heatiness' got me. sigh! what i've been eating in the past now affected me. Previously, went to eat at seoul garden with 4/1 and it is, i beleive the start of my heatiness. becos i felt a lil sore in my throat. so yeah..i told myself to drink water..but apparently i forgot that i'm heaty, i drink like about 1L-2L only...din really gauge either. yeah..den i ate chilli-ed luncheon meat before...mos burger's fried butterflies and french fries, fried dumpling....etc etc etc....too much i guess... and water ...too little..

so yeah..yesterday my inners got exploded... liver working hard, and i guess all organs inside me are on a heat, all are exuding heat...can imagine..if temperature got any higher than 38.5, they could just melt and worst..cooked! melt at least, u put them in a mould, stll can get back the shape and cont working. but cooked?!!? u cant use them anymore! might as well extract them out and eat them up. and after that, sleep in a coffin and travel.

lol!! how funny are my descriptions! lol!! eh...they may not be funny to you but...i uses my imagination too much..lol!!! i'm a sadistic person.

ok.i admit i'm not really a lit person..though i took them before and always thot i was great becos lit pple are cool! but now..i'm a pre psychologist, i think i'm cool still . haha!!!

yeah..so went to see a doc at lavender...the doc sucked somehow. he din give me med for phlegm. i told him i got sore throat and headache,all body ache and felt feverish. he only gave me paracetemol,amoxyllin(some penicillin, forgot its uses liao :( ) and one for flu...wait... since when i am down with flu..it's just.........sinus i supposed. argh...i miss dr gary. i mean.. he's name is Gary Keong. Real handsome man. haha!! but he's married. lol! i like his way of seeing patients. he cares alot for patients. and he talks to us...like some psych. haha! but yea..my dad being a selfish guy, din want to drop me off at river valley, dr gary's clinic. and he even said after eating med, see how i felt and if better, go to class. that's like...ouch! how could he say that.

it's not as if i want to miss this lesson. i'm really sick and tired... i tried my best to 'feel better' but urgh...no use.

so went to sleep back home..for..about...3 hours? that's like..super long! normally..the longest was 21/2 to 3..but duno why..after 3 hrs stll feel so tired...

and basically slacked the whole day..ARGH! i'm wasting my time!!! i'm wasting my youth!!! i' such a loser!

pls someone help me!

heh! had driving lesson on 8th aug...morning 815. wow..the sun was bright and it shone into my eyes..seemed like i'm blinded from all beautiful sights.

ok..that wasnt part of my idea of being poetic..just so happened it rhymed thats all. lol!!

anyway..i had this instructor..and he's tall... same name as our dearest councillor- Andrew Tan!!!! lol!~!

yeah..din take a good look at him when i was in e car cos i was kinda late----2 mins... :P

yeah..he put on his sports sun glasses* those that reflects* and he looked..hmm....cool? i forgotten.

so yeah...i tot he was stern..but somehow.. talking about hitting a pedestrain blah...he said that i'll handle the male if it is a male..and he will handle the females. guys..u know..like girls..etc..

so i daringly asked him this qn, 'so are u married or...."

he said,' MBA'. MBA? MARRIED BUT AVAILABLE. LOL!!!

he said he got a wife..and a daughter age3... from what he told me...he sure do love his daughter alot!!

really i mean..a lot! i cant find anymore fathers that dote their daughters until wow! i'm rather lazy to typethe content of our convo...about his daughter andwife... oh

but i must say.. he's really powerful... learn eng himself...no education when young.. and he knows a lil' of jappO!!!

so he was like telling me stories of his trip to japan..and how he spoke jap and yeah..he spoke some to let me hear it... lol! i'm quite amazed by his jap... though broken..still i guess i was influenced a lil'. how???

wait...so he asked me to stop at e side to show me an article....

yeah..i believe that students learning driving just have a sucky attitude. they learn to quickly get a licence. an not care abt road safety and all.!??! and customer service is what instructor have to do that's all..sigh!! hello!?! they are the teacher..and we are the student!~~~!!!!! we should give our respect to them becos w're learning from them!

well i pity those instructor..get so low pay and still get mad at students... such kids nowadays...think whaT???

got education dai sai ah!? talk big only~ it's the majority that made some pple stereotype those who are not like those bast***

ok..so he took off his shades and woah!

he looked sooooo.........ang moh!!!!!!!!!!! lol!!!! he said that he's a peranakan. hmmm..no wonder...exotic look sia! but of course....he's just himself...trying to earn a livin...but he cant get anywhere now even with his looks. loL!!! cos singapore standard getting higher..

ya. back to influencing, when Patrick added me on friendster...i was.......................shocked?!?!!!?

ya..so in a shocked..i start speaking in 'jap' with a jap accent.

it's all nonsense that i spoke! really!! i actually wanted to speak.. korean becos previously i was watching highkick kim bum(cute guy in my msn dp) and i was so engrossed into it..trying to learn korean... but ended up...i spoke in some jap that was fast and so jap accented!

how cool was that! woohoO!

of course! it's sub consciously that i spoke those... there were times when i was thinking 'how is this possible...u sure?? etc' and other times, i know that i 'miraculously' spoke jap... so of course...with these 2 times....i spoke jap...continously...untill i stopped to think back. den when i tried again...haha！ cannot le.


but nvm..i decided to take up korean..and violin...in e future. muahahah!!! whatfor?? eh... to learn and to attract guys..haha!! eh eh! e latter was just a joke!

Sigh! i spent an extra 34$ on eye shadow..which totally doesnt fit me? or rather..my mom has loads at home and i din touch it. see how stupid am i to give into those? ig uess the person attending to me and my mom was the factor.. sigh...he's John yee at clinique at bugis. darn. i'm too easily swayed by pple's good will. i guess i should just listen to my mom........again! darn. tot i could just make my own decision but ended up..they are always a bunch of wrong decisions. argh! i'm dumb. and ig uess i wont be able to survive when my parents die.

that time when i spent about 200+ on cosmetics..inclusive of a Benetint, foundation faker and 1 shimmer 'creme'' used to show your skin that it's shiny and nice..blah blah. what else..hmmmm..yeah that's all and bloody hell that cost 200++? argh!! now whaT? i'm regretting my decisions. i guess i'm a super impulsive person even though i'm a SC in DISC profiling....

i guess i should just be stingy with cosmetics. simple makeup should just do the magic.

damn...i feel like i'm some girl of age....13-14 trying to put make up to impress others but ended up in a mess. darn.

makeup is such a hassle fussle! takes time...and when you have to remove ur makeup...you have to make sure that it's a good makeup remover ..and when wiping off those colours, you have to be accurate in ur strength if not..too hard, you'll ruin your face by sagging it and you'll look super old with lines all over ur face. but if too soft, you cant wipe those colours clean and clogged pores will result in bad skin and have complications of what you do not want to know!

argh..but why makeup still? i guess it's all about getting attention. it's nature i guess to get reproduction going on. If girls dun try to attract guys, guys will not be with them and reproduce us, the future generationssssssssss. and girls...they have this mentality..it's taken from somewhere..i guess it's evolutionary psych, that girls are particular about their offsprings becos they want good genes. hmm quite true! that's what i always think of whenever me and friends talk about guys...bf...and marriage....LOL!!!!

but how bout guys? do they wear makeup too to get attention? eh...in the past, they dun and they based on their natural suaveness and attractions to get our attention. oh..not forgetting their super good ways in getting in to our good books! but basically, they just wnat their genes spread around...unlike women, they din think much abt how good the genes they want but just spread. That's why i say... AIDS/ HIV are orginated from males! loL!!!!

nah! i'm just kidding...i dun even know how it started but this joke or idea just strucked me..and i'm just speaking my mind... heyS! it's blog! so? so...dun believe what computer internet says! ask and impossibly read our minds!

ok..i'm crapping again! anyway... now...guys do wear make up becos they love themselves toooooo much. too much to give way to women and yeah...women are losing somehow in this area. guys are more receiveable in e area of makeup. why??? becos they're males in the females industry???

it's more...hmmm what can i say... there's 2 views to this issue though. 1- you get to be real close to them and perhaps if heaven do not forbid, you get the chance to go out wth him. loL!! ok that's crap!

but 2....this is real! guys in the female world are those who tend to be more...sensitive..more...close to females. to put it in layman's term..more effiminate...more lovable, more sissy? well not really sissy but more understanding of women's inner sensitivity(pun) i mean inner skin and inner feelings in case u dunno what i'm trying to say(inefficiently!:( )

and women like guys to be effiminate..we all get along really well becos...its like...'heya, sista'! how are you! oh, c'mon give me a hug! *exchange smooches on e cheeks as a form of formal greetings*' and that..it starts the bimbotic talks like this old show called, "Wong Fu" ?? it's 3 guys all dolled up to be women...and teaching a girl to make up..to go out with this guy she likes. that' s they best show ive seen. great but funny!

right..i've nagged alot and talked nonsensical side-tracked stuff...it's t ime to CIAO~!

hmmm..it's been quite a long time since i updated. i'm updating today becos of what Tim said- journal writing can let ourselves understand ourselves better.

we did e DISC 15 qns profiling. and as usual i'm SCID. and my 2 other friends are ISCD? yeah..around there. mikael and yasmeen..and prob ming are I too. haha! so after that, we watched IVey's video and here comes the activity in class.

we each have 3 pple in a group. and we're supposed to role play a counsellor, client and observer. so i kena client first becos of the tiny weeny lucky draw..and it's literary tiny becos the paper is like...smaller than 1cm? around there... and yeah sam is the councellor and observer lynn.

so we chose1 qn out of e 3. qns like the jobs whether we like it or not. what hobbies or even current politics,happenings.

yeah..so i talked about Zara... as usual. i'm not shy or i'm not trying to cover it up.. i'm splattering it out all over the place like those pple who kena internal injuries, splashing the blood all over the wall... muahaha!

of course..e feeling of being 'counselled' was very wierd....sam was good..being 'professional' :D prob..that made me felt wierd..lol!! no offences man!

yeah..den lynn counselled sam..and i as the observer...was busy jotting down..and trying to keep in pace..and inde end..scribbled and it was embarrassing to give lyn those scribes. LOL!

right..so it was my turn to be councellor. hahah!! and it was wierd cos i strayed from work to her family...well..i din noe what to say anymore..and i was looking at Sam to give signal that 3 mins' up! so..eventually time's up..and she said that i've touched her raw nerves.. ssssss.... goodness.that was bad... i shouldnt have done that! but...miraculously...

both said that i was good.. i'm like..."huH? really meh?"

so below is e evaluation by sam.

Visual/eye contact. Facilitative? Starin？　Ａvoidance? Sensitive to the individual client? At what points, if any, did the interviewer break contact? Facilitatively? Distruptively?


-good eye contact

-facilitative shifting

Vocal qualities. Vocal tone? Speech rate? volume? accent? points at which t hese changed in response toc client actions? No. of major changes or speech hesitations?


-casual tone,relaxed

-encouraging tone, help move on e topic

vol wassoft so it seemed encouraging but not interrupting

Verbal tracking and selective attention/ was the client able to tell the story? stay on topic? no. of major topic jumps? did shifts seem to indicate the interviewer interest patterns? Did the interviewer demonstrate selective attention in pursuing one issue rather than another? Did the client have the majority of the talk time?

-able to stay and probe on e e topic without seeming unnatural and invasive

-she seemed genuinely interested and paid full attentionm, smooth flow of conversation

attentive body lang. leaning? gestures? facial expression? at what points, if any, did the interviewr shift position or show a marked change in body lang? no. of facilitative body lang movements? what the session auntentic?

good space

nervous fidgeting of hands

nodding

appropriate facial expression

specific positive aspects of the interview?


-very approachable

-on same frequency asclient, can carry on the topic well

very appropriate comments at the right points

wow!that's thank you!

today was fun!

kim bum lover!