I need to relax..and be confident. That's what the lady at ta bo gong at amoy, or telok ayer st told me. well, i asked the wrong divination cos when u asked for one, u dont have to ask for studies. cos that's on ur part to strive hard. but she told me it's a bad one cos i dun have confidence?? the confidence part is she say one i guess, iono...

well..that was the first time i had gone thru this divination process. muahahaha!

yes i know i ver lao tu. haha! to mention it was an embarrassment to me. the way i held the divination container..was..unable for the lots to sift one out. i shook sooo long..and finally, i gave up and let my bro first. den it was my turn...well..it was loud and noisy..but good to see one lot drop out. but sad to hear if its a down lot....xia xia qian.

anyway...it was fun..at least i know how to do it now. oh..i need to pray to master white tiger , bai hu ye. i forgot what for..but its for the good la...
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oh in case no body knows, 29th April is Ben and Jerry day whre they will give out free ice cream!!! yay! 1-2 scoops...yay! going with my fren..yes..who else but the three of them, annie, qy and wisnu.

oh btw, i just realised that it's also Mr Patrick's bday. haha! ben and jerry boy. LOL!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to him first!

oh i recently realised something... my watch was once, about 3 days ago, 20 mins faster than all clocks i've checked.


surprisely...yes. so what happened??? iono too! i want to know what happened too!

how i wish that some paranormal or someone who's knowledgeable regarding these wierd findings to tell me that i've been thru time..hahaha!!! by 20mins only!!! LOL!

so prob i'm faster than all of you in terms of foresighting!!! yay!!

ahahha!! but that might mean that i'm older than everyone here by 20 mins.. wah!!!


and now my watch says 11.25 when it's 1120pm only. so...i'm beginning to move into the future again. muahahaha!

but of course..that would not happen.


so yeah...wed morning went to NDC to put my lower rack of braces.. woah..i felt something restricting my lower teeth...but nt painful... however, until in the late evening, everything started to evolve.

the demon in the pain started to become stronger. it's so strong that it took over my nerve system, splitting them into halves and halves. i cant even have my dinner proper. and a little touch of the upper and lower teeth made my nerves burst, resulting in a super huge attack on my sensory nerves. OUUUUCCCCCHHHH!!!! i was 'shitting' all over and i was in such pain that i kept hitting the tables to relieve my stress...oh..in hoping to relieve i meant.


but today was slightly..yes 0.0001% better.

well...who asked that my gene's so 'good'. good untill need money to protect it...argh!


Nerve wrecking pain kills!


oh..ya..today's Nicolas B'day. Wanted to give him my intended bday gift, but becos i knew of this fortune reading dashi, i tot of gettign him some not so enpensive gift of fortune. but he kept insisting that i shouldnt buy.

well..tot of giving my intention of frenship to him but ...so...i decided to give him a nice yummy slice of 'The Pattisier' cake. it's not going to be cheap cos it's special and so trademark of theirs. hahah!

and it's worth it in another way la... cos good yummy food MUST BE SHARED!!! and i should be helping them to advertise since the cake i last bought for my mom's bday which was yesterday, was super yummy!!!!

oh my god!

oh i recently realised something... my watch was once, about 3 days ago, 20 mins faster than all clocks i've checked.


surprisely...yes. so what happened??? iono too! i want to know what happened too!

how i wish that some paranormal or someone who's knowledgeable regarding these wierd findings to tell me that i've been thru time..hahaha!!! by 20mins only!!! LOL!

so prob i'm faster than all of you in terms of foresighting!!! yay!!

ahahha!! but that might mean that i'm older than everyone here by 20 mins.. wah!!!


and now my watch says 11.25 when it's 1120pm only. so...i'm beginning to move into the future again. muahahaha!

but of course..that would not happen.


so yeah...wed morning went to NDC to put my lower rack of braces.. woah..i felt something restricting my lower teeth...but nt painful... however, until in the late evening, everything started to evolve.

the demon in the pain started to become stronger. it's so strong that it took over my nerve system, splitting them into halves and halves. i cant even have my dinner proper. and a little touch of the upper and lower made my nerves burst, resulting in a super huge attack on my sensory nerves. OUUUUCCCCCHHHH!!!! i was 'shitting' all over and i was in such pain that i kept hitting the tables to relieve to stress...oh..in hoping to relieve i meant.


but today was slightly..yes 0.0001% better.

well...who asked that my gene's so 'good'. good untill need money to protect it...argh!


Nerve wrecking pain kills!


oh..ya..today's Nicolas B'day. Wanted to give him my intended bday gift, but becos i knew of this fortune reading dashi, i tot of gettign him some not so enpensive gift of fortune. but he kept insisting that i shouldnt buy.

well..tot of giving my intention of frenship to him but ...so...i decided to give him a nice yummy slice of 'The Pattisier' cake. it's not going to be cheap cos it's special and so trademark of theirs. hahah!

and it's worth it in another way la... cos good yummy food MUST BE SHARED!!! and i should be helping them to advertise since the cake i last bought for my mom's bday which was yesterday, was super yummy!!!!

oh my god!

Life is starting to get busy for me.... soon, probably after my exam or...perhaps earlier, after my assignments, i'll take up the photography job. den with VE, sigh...i was psycho-ed to buy one for my family first...i'm like..walao...ask my family to be on the operation table first. muahaha!!!

but anyway, i neeeeeeeeed to learn how to speak of the prod..not any other thing...
if i dun have things like Mel has, how i start sia!? so different from Winalite lor. sian...I guess they want money too... that's like that with mlm...but as long as i get money from outsiders...i'm satisfied..oh and i have to plan...sian...but i'll learn bah.



den went for alumni meeting and AGM yesterday... finally saw Becky and Jane! it's been a long while.. haha! lucky yesterday ther's a few came... if not we;ll be sitting on cold chairs.

Got so much gossips to share with my friend and i'm so enjoying it... MUAHAHAHA!!!

Today, supposed to go to balestier to eat breakfast with mom. but i mistook this right turn for other road..and i happily avoided that lane..i was like..what the hell!??!

den i saw thomson road, the road i drove along when i went to sembawang, den a thought came to my mind, why not eat the chicken rice there...hehehe! fast reaction right?? :P

so whn there to eat at Long House, and to my discovery, there were many food to enjoy! it was lively! so we settled on to chicken rice set A... chicken with rice, soup and beansprouts. hehe!

oh, and a fruit juice drink of mixed apple and honeydew! yummy!

den..i just realised that my moon roof can be opened!! so happy!!! ok i may sound bimbotic here...but i never took e time to explore it...hahhaa!! i haven got time to explore ok!?!? so dun blame me. :P

today rained...saw someone's nick and the weather was worst than it seemed. sigh...if i were to ask him, he would find really good unbeatable excuse to make me believe it's not what i tot to be. he's....well u think i should forget him? I mean, i 've been treating him as a friend instead of the other. and seriously, i've gotten over him cos he's like the impossible kind to get together. it's the situational factors as well as his personality...

but of course, if he ever finds a girl, i'd gladly say congrats... cos i'm his friend. But he doesn't even wants to talk to me?!?!?!?! that's the saddest part of all....


shit, i'm lamenting again... ah! well well, i guess the solution would be to find more new friends...heeheehee!

hello, i'm not desperate here! i just want to forget the pain. and it need not be guys that i'm befriending with. itcan be girls, someone whom i can hang out with too...oh...talking abt that

the sec group i always hang out with..seemed to have drift away from me...or is it the other way round??? but anyway, i dread the feeling of being the extra in their group...sian lor!!!

so wanting to be with them..but...they all act as if i'm transparent? only when i speak, my self will reveal...like some harry potter scene man..



Below is an excerpt i created myself. hahaha!

yeelee says, 'hey, where you guys wanna go?'

others looked around in search for the sound, and realised that i'm just beside. only when they saw me, i reappear in human form. when i stopped, and their concentration no longer was on me, i helplessly dissolved into thin air, yelping for help in my mouth, with the sound in me.


'Hey Yee Lee, you want to go kbox?'


happy that they finally rmb me and talked to me, the automatic switch seemed to switch on by itself. I reappear immediately like those star wars lighting, that can serve as some comm. device.....u know whati'm talking abt?? the blue light with human pict...


ya..and i started to speak..but due to its kind..the transmission kind...i was interrupted and i zapped and switched off again...


so what can we learn from it in the social psych view? i'm some one who lives my life in accordance to what pple view me as... their view affects me... fogot the word, will come and write abt what it meant next time!

today was such a pretty day! Drove to Sembawang to fix the door wisor? something u placed at the window so the rain wont come in when the window's opened.

seriously, i've not venture Sembawang before even though dad brought me there before to fix his car. It's just such a serene place i would like to live in!

although it's not a rich area district but the smell and the atmosphere...does resembles a very high class place. THat's if u minus those hdb flats..hahaha!

i like the bus ride very much! Cos it's cooling in the bus, plus the super duper natural scene outside, i felt as if i would go there to run and play just like i was a young little girl. FREEDOM!!!


the grass was so green and so wide so vast!!!!!!!!! i just love NATURE! really man, you will feel like hugging the floor of grass when u are there!

i wonder if we can just step in there to enjoy when there's a signboard called 'STATE LAND' ARGH.....

den we went to SUN PLAZA!!!!! it's yellow in colour and definitely resembles the sun's colour and the 'shine'. inside was simple..but was heartwarming because of the familiarity, the common-ness of the people's town heart! oh oh!!!! the VICTORY FAMILY CENTRE was also very grand! it looked just like those country club! It's the outlook i mean. oh my! i felt so happy!


it seems that the pple there are just so innocent! Even the little boy(teenager) who was workingath te NTUC fairprice talked in dialects with the ah ma when she asked how much the rice was.

it's just so simple...how i wish i'd stay there forever!

but the area there was rather far from 'civilisation' hahahaha! it's rather oolu. haha! oh oh!!!!

the schools...there are alot of sec and pri there and guess what i saw some of the sch's name?

Canberra(some name of some state...in aussie?? forgot and lazy to chck). den ENDEAVOR pri??? can u imagine?? what a word! den...montreal sec(pri)???? It's funny!

you know what i fantasized abt those greenery? ahahha!! running and enjoying the greenery with the one i love. lying there and rolling around with that chosen one...hahaha!

i know that's like so waht the hell...but..that's just an imagination, it doesn't have to be real because, with time so tight and work so high, taking time out would be a prob...


But i'll really love to go with the friend who never fails to talk to me abt his army life. haha! wait..am i giving a hint?? nah...i'm just writing my diary...and besides, he'll be too busy to read my blog anyway. MUAHAHA!!! oh..i'm not complaining abt him talking to me abt his army life but, that's significant enough to remember him as. hahahahahhahaha

well...car's here and woah! Qy get to grace the honour..hahaha! She's lucky..haha...

felt like on top of the world now..hahaha! i need to put more petrol..and i need to drive more..hehehe!!

prob do it after exam...:P

den today went to SAMH, rather a great place...a santuary...? but the smell sucks... sorry destitutes(destiDUDES) HAHAHA!

but i must say the greatest part those pple in the homes did was, the PAINTINGS!!!! oh my! it's just so cooL! so like artist standard..muahaha!

oh btw, the assistant psychologist..forgot his name was really a tallguy.......AND SKINNY!!!!! ARGH!!! so tall..so xian mu! like a stick! but anyway...he carried himself well..with a kid in him when he talked to his fellow pple in there. haha! Cute.


den went to hougang mall with others.. beck, ariel, annie and qy.. wanting to take neoprinto..but..sian..super tired and not worth the money...den went home after that..

and before we even part...we actually took super long time to part man! laughing..nhahah!

arH!!! QY's funny joke!!! initiated by Wishnu...



'arhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, OH my g~od!'

was what triggered my laughing bones...

Today had been a boring day. Enjoyed the peacefulness because my bro wentto this bkt batok chalet to crash with his friends...sigh...how i wish i can play now...NOW!!!! i dun want to go back to sch...yes..tmr's monday and sch reopens....sigh!

i really wish i can go out with friends and enjoy life. Ok...sounds like i'm not a very sociable person..or some one from the mountains...i guess i'd agree to the latter... :(


I believe i'll b taking up photography job soon..as a partimer..cos this lady..kelly, she photographed me on sat yesterday for my makeover..hahah! it was done by Tina Tee, the senior make up artist manager?? She recognizes my mom..haha! She's such a nice lady...she made me remember of Linda Lee from WInalite..hahahahahahahahahahhaha!!! Her complexion was sooooooooo smooth and fair! oh my god!!!!

ok..den ya.. kelly helped our Monk's Hill to take the class fotos...i rmber her vividly cos of her hair face and demeanor! haha! she's good at teaching us how to pose..lol! BUt i guess i'm a lousy and stiff 'model' bleah!



i uploaded some pic or rather 1 pic on facebook..as well as msn dp.. :P


den partiming Venture Era, Mel's co.

i'll be busy den.. yeah!

ok..if eel so wierd now..
happy and sad at the same time all thanks to Benjamin Yen.

argh...if he ever read this, he better be alive cos he should thank me for being his friend.He's so silly! he said he wants to die..i cant help much given my limited ability with counselling..argh.. i wish i could help but he's darn stubborn. He keeps repeating his sch cos he thinks it's his fault..right..take it as his fault...he only blames! havent he like udnerstood what his bible and his God told him abt life and that he had to treasure it?

he blames and never finds solution. what a waste? he cant think for goodness sake..why cant he? hes just plain lazy. BUt why are u tired of urself? cos u never change! c'mon he dun even bother to change...he dun even want to help himself what for the bystander to help? it must be an interaction thing u see...

i asked him to think back what he did back in the years he's in sch but..he chose not to...
well..that's bad abt msn..u cant force the person to think whereas face to face, u can...argh...i somehow feels like slapping him so he can wake up and find meaning in life again. imean the slap part is not meaningful..hahaha! but hopefully, he will socialize more, understand and be matured, change his bad habits and more positive stuff!

it would be a pity and a loss if he really find something to do that will make him end up on the headlines. It's just so not worth it. He'll be a fool if he goes for that.
den again, i know he'sgonna say ya watever, i am a fool and wouldnt it be good if i die..so there's no mor trouble for others... ah...he's ignorant..na.ive and a mockery himself. before he had all those tots..i tot he's rather a nice guy to be with except for those sarcastic remarks.

i cant say much...but happy cos...hmm...i enjoyed talking with yh? aiyah..that's like what??! i think i'll be happy if i work harder and not procrastinate..

Cheers to life!

LOL!!! I DREAMT OF MYSELF BEING IN AN AGE OLD PLACE!!! yes...we got alot of plants at some crevasse and we wear those really drapy clothes. But the whole activity was rather special but dangerous. we have to keep putting special food like cookies crumbs, oil cement paste scraps and black stuff on different plants because different plants need different nutrients before they can grow really large as well as producing these special smell we humans cant reallly smell.

The sky den sounded the cries of the pterodactyls, and they were ready to attack the humans. They flapped their giant wings and making those swooshing sounds and flying at full speed, they swooped down the start of the crevasse and seeing that we had no time in putting more nutrients(fertilisers) we stopped everything and hid at some of the small caves...we stood by the sides like we were welcoming unwillingly. Passing above those plants, the pterodactyls began to fly weakly as the pungent smell rose under the hot sun to their noses.

after that, we continue and SiMin and me i guess, went around together some deserted place with house, stoney grounds* (cracked cements) in search for something which i forgot...sigh.. .dreams are always like this... iguess my ltm or stm memory isnt that good...hurhurhur, like jy...hahah!! that's why we're bro and sis! hahaha ok. that was lame...

anyway,bought a dress, two skirts(black and white) and this very emo dress(long sleeve ans high neck top and a wearover? that looked like some very long collar??? iono how to explain..)

and they're really nice!! muahaha! money money!