Added a new song to my playlist of the best songs i've ever heard in my life. It's called Train of Thought by A-Ha.

haha! the voice was magnetic plus the melody was there.you see. den as i read the lyrics...itseems that it's talking about being schizophrenic?? having minds full of strangers?? below is the lyrics

He likes to have the morning paper's crossword solved
Words go up
words come down
fowards
backwards
twisted 'round.
He grabs a pile of letters from a small suitcase
Disappears into an office
it's another working day.

And his thoughts are full of strangers
corridors of naked lights.
And his mind once full of reason
Now there's more than meets the eye.
Now a stranger's face he carries with him.
He likes a bit of reading on the subway home
A distant radio's whistling tunes that nobody knows.
At home a house awaits him
he unlocks the door
Thinking: once there was a sea here
but there never was a door.
And his thoughts are full of strangers
and his eyes too numb to see.
And nothing that he knows of
and nowhere where he's been
Won't ever quite like this.
And his thoughts are full of strangers
Corridors of naked lights
And his mind once full of reason
Now there's more than meets the eye.
Now a stranger's face he carries with him
And at heart he's full of strangers
Dodging on his train of thought.


Then today had psychopathology class and we talked abt personality disorder. I realised that i have afew comordity of different disorders.. which is quite sad...

i have avoidant PD(personality disorder), dependent PD, a little of narcissistic PD( grandiose view of abilities and preoccupied with success of great success, yes i do that sometimes) and Obsessive- compulsive PD(different from OCDisorder, i had a tendency to be a perfectionist???)

That's categorised under fear cluster of PD.

How bad is that?? i may not qualify for them if i were to take the PD test...like DSM iv TR.

but sooner or later..i might.. so scared man... oh currently i am working of maternal attachment styles predicts depression project. and i believe i had insecure attachment with mom...andi may have the tendency to be depressed... hello! i felt as if i had them now! no lor..i AM having them oready. cos whenever there's obstacle..or when i 'fall' i feel terribly sad.


hey man..i m not tat weak la.. i'm trying to be strong here....( but in another words, i may be just faking it. put up a brave front. hmmm..... plausible)
hey..i cant destroy the image i have in my dream man... i want to be someone successful... strutting like some big and pretty bizness woman! haha!! butbut.... i have another dream i wished to realise..
that is to get into the media world.. and be famous.. like those people who does the makeup...or photography..or for styling.. or anything that's gotta do with media, fashion, art.. but
but...
but... i know i got no talent in there cos 1...i dun no anthing bout fashion..i wear very 'song' clothes. dunno how to match clothes. den make up..i know nuts about it!!!

art?? i dun do painting..or drama...or lit...

photography? yet to explore. might call up the company to take up photography job. :)

psychology?? duno eh..haven gott he motivation to check out. working as volunteer?? i needa mahneh!$$$$$$$$$$$$$$
those jobs with criteria so high..i doubt ican cosi've yet to finish my bach.!

I want to take up violin!!! piano?? nah.. quite bad at coordination(cos need pract. lazy..muahahaha!) guitar?? i tot of it..but a little boyish..i find it not really nice cos it's afterall a boy's instrument. yes...i know i shouldnt have that kind of thinking despite taking social psych and sociology?? am i right to quote that 2 subj?? heck la!

how bout music making?? lyrics writing?

i need to be philosophical first then.........LOL! like MORTEN HARKET. the things he spoke are like gold. weigh so much, with meanings!