music: in praise of the vulnerable man - alanis morissette

what's the point of being so strong all the time when being strong results in you creating armies and walls to protect yourself and never ever letting anyone in?



Got this from Rayner's blog..and acknowledging this fact gives the credit to him for putting this up. It coincides with this blog that i read though. Yes.. the friend i always say..haha!

well...what to say when he posted that entry up!? To help or not? To ignore or not? to be in contact or not? to be friendly as always or not? to even talk or not?....



millions of questions can run thru my head now..but i chose not to..cos...i guess i'd just remain neutral...For that meet up..i guess we'll make our friend the mitigating factor..to 'neutralize' what embarrassing moments there will be when we all meet up. i say 'will' as u can see..cos i know there will be...as always i supposed.. even a 5 mins one. sigh...i somehow....sympathise him? or should i not?



becos he said it's just him..that's him. dude..me too, o'right? but i managed to try to overcome that everytime i meet pple.. ......

well, to the very extent, calling someone is still the worst barrier i've ever met... i dread and hate calling pple...darn! even if its just calling up some bank to ask abt some point system! bloody damn it! why why why? sigh... i dun have that kind of fear in the past. i dun have that kinda fear man!

oh...just as i was cursing, i saw the lights on the buildings(residential) in front of my window lit up! haha!! what does that mean? LIfe aint that scary at all!


i guess i really need to call others more often. but i always worry abt bills. haha!!! i'm saving for my dad.. yes..u can call me a spoilt brat. i waste money.... but on the other hand i keep saying that i want to save up. what a contradiction!


i need to work harder. for everything in the world i'm attached to. ya. studies, work, feelings, life.....

ah yes... Life... LIFE!!! what a word!! u can attach all those wierd words to it. yes.. like oxymoron, contradiction, innuendo, pun.....sh*t...scary place etc...


ok.. i shall not figure out the meaning. cos it's subjective. many pple attach diff meanings to it.. some religion would reply.. It's God given, live to tell the tale( truth, legacy...etc) of God.. bla blah.. please..i must once again make my stand clear that...i'm a freethinker... i believe in all religion as they all exist and have their own kind of worships and tales.... end of story...



and...i need to get out to meet new friends..i'm always a hermit crab.. darn!