today rained...saw someone's nick and the weather was worst than it seemed. sigh...if i were to ask him, he would find really good unbeatable excuse to make me believe it's not what i tot to be. he's....well u think i should forget him? I mean, i 've been treating him as a friend instead of the other. and seriously, i've gotten over him cos he's like the impossible kind to get together. it's the situational factors as well as his personality...

but of course, if he ever finds a girl, i'd gladly say congrats... cos i'm his friend. But he doesn't even wants to talk to me?!?!?!?! that's the saddest part of all....


shit, i'm lamenting again... ah! well well, i guess the solution would be to find more new friends...heeheehee!

hello, i'm not desperate here! i just want to forget the pain. and it need not be guys that i'm befriending with. itcan be girls, someone whom i can hang out with too...oh...talking abt that

the sec group i always hang out with..seemed to have drift away from me...or is it the other way round??? but anyway, i dread the feeling of being the extra in their group...sian lor!!!

so wanting to be with them..but...they all act as if i'm transparent? only when i speak, my self will reveal...like some harry potter scene man..



Below is an excerpt i created myself. hahaha!

yeelee says, 'hey, where you guys wanna go?'

others looked around in search for the sound, and realised that i'm just beside. only when they saw me, i reappear in human form. when i stopped, and their concentration no longer was on me, i helplessly dissolved into thin air, yelping for help in my mouth, with the sound in me.


'Hey Yee Lee, you want to go kbox?'


happy that they finally rmb me and talked to me, the automatic switch seemed to switch on by itself. I reappear immediately like those star wars lighting, that can serve as some comm. device.....u know whati'm talking abt?? the blue light with human pict...


ya..and i started to speak..but due to its kind..the transmission kind...i was interrupted and i zapped and switched off again...


so what can we learn from it in the social psych view? i'm some one who lives my life in accordance to what pple view me as... their view affects me... fogot the word, will come and write abt what it meant next time!