oh...i'm so excited that 12th oct is the day when i get my braces on!!! hahahahahahahahahaha!!

wait..i know you must be thinking that i'm crazy..to laugh and welcoming this moment people hated. well..i hated at first becos i spent soooooooooooooooo much money and yet..the result..........succccccccccccckkkkkkkkksssssssssss!!!!!!!!!

now..i seriously hope that it's going to turn out well. oh..yes... i hated to put back cos i took quite a longtime before i got my beautiful teeth back! and now! back to where my self-esteem goes down to the bottom again! sigh!!!

yes..i looked ugly with braces...at first when i put it..i tot i was going to look cool with those braces! but..sigh...i think braces are ugly. but somehow i felt cool wearing them.. ;) still i cant forget that i'm still harping on the fact it is super ugly on me!! no...i should say i look super ugly with the braces!!!

plus now..it's at ndc, the colours of the rubber bands are super super limited!!!! there's no dark green no turqoise, no silver no nice pink no nothing!!! argh! lousy!!!

oh i just extracted another poor tooth! oh my... i feel so sad to part with it. it's been with me for...almost 16-17 years? it's MINE!!!! AARRRR!!!!

and when it was extracted out by the doct.the doc i detested, i felt my heart being crunched and crushed!!! my precious healthy tooth!!!!

the root was super long!! yes! that's a sign of healthy tooth! and it's innocent! argh!!!!

yes...with the flesh still stucked on it. i cant bear to think again....and now zoom to the destestable doc, dr Ash** LIM! i dun like his arrogant, thought he's the best doc-in-the-whole-of-singapore attitude!!! he sounded as if he's the professional! and when he inject the anaesthetic, he was looking but while injecting the dosage, he LOOKED AWAY!!!!!!!!!! aaaaaaaerrrrrrrrrrrrrrgggggggggghhhhhhhhhh!!!!! HOW COULD HE!!!! HOW COULD HE LOOK AWAY!!! THAT'S NOT PROFESSIONAL! THAT'S 'HECK CARE', THAT'S UNCARING! THAT'S NOT A DOCTOR!!

GUARDS!!!TAKE HIM DOWN AND AWAY!!!

sigh..and when he looked away, i was scared and my heart's thumping...bt not as hard as later i will explain. and guess what...HIS HAND SHOOKED!!! AND IT AFFECTED ME! I FELT IT AND IT WAS PAINFUL!!! ~!@#~!%$#@$%#^ him!

so not professional and unethical! and it's not once..but twice!!!! he need to inject two position..the outer gum an the inner gum! MY GOD! i tot it was over when he finished the 1st! well..the inner gum was SUPER SUPER PAINFUL MUCH MUCH PAINFUL THAN THE OUTER GUM!!! it's yes...something piercing thru, a searing pain u swear u would get something to throw at the person and try to imagine it's not so pain.

sigh...yes..when ready... the doct starts using all his strength..as if ready for a big haul of a heavy thing. well..the feeling...nah..i'm all numb....but rather, the sound and the collision was scary...metal and perishable/fragile crushable enamel. sigh...it was a terror..a nightmare! the sound that signifies the vulnerability of my tooth.
* the tooth crimped and whined! trying to hide in one corner and begging for mercy*

sothere he went, shaking it. i heard the sound of crushing..like a few veins, few neurons breaking from the over tension. and the blood vessels split open like some broken violin string, and spilling blood all over within the gum.

i heard that, and i stop the doc immediately.. i was not supposed to do that cos that will cause him to distract kill my precious tooth into million pieces. he said something i couldnt understand and said something tat somehow meant i shouldnt worry and interfere. i hated the meaning of interfere although it wasnt said by him. he hinted that subtlely!

so he continue push and pull my tooth to and fro...until i heard a TEARING sound. so disgusting! yet so heart wrenching! oh my god! well..the feeling and the most imptly..the SOUND ..was as if..it's the extraction of the big tree from it's roots that were firmly rooted to the deepest ground. yes.. the sound..'pick piak prack pruck prock...........' argh...it was not that terrible..but it's a lighter version...and a faster one. he told me before that if any instance while extracting the tooth crushes, i may need to do a small surgery. argh..i hate it when they have such risk involved. so yes...when i heard that sound..i tot my tooth's crushing into pieces!

HAI.....all was done...and i have to put pressure on the poor big hole by biting on the cotton guaze. argh...

when i sat up, i observed my tooth, yes... pink in health and LONG and THICK. it's the best tooth i ever saw. those wisdom teeth i took last time was ugly and crushed to pieces...no chance of reincarnation..sigh... terrible..shivers upon recalling. yes..this tooth.....sad to part. the nurse was asking if i want to bring back. i said no. why??

bring back for what??? you cant do anything! unless u really really believe in the tale of toth fairy..which is rather bullshitting. and i got no place to keep or bury. hai.. no choice..into the rubbish chute. i can imagine how lonely my poor little tooth would be.......naked and shivering.

sigh..enough of my sadness.

time to study. goodnite!