hey hey hey! guess what? i'm typing this post using my new bought laptop, MACBOOK!!!! YAYAYAYAYAY!

It's is such a beau! though a lil' diificult to use..just becos i'm new at it, i believe that i'll get used to it really fast. the bad thing is.....i need to spend another heap of cash on the software for window mac. that is...whatever word doc..or any window hs it.. well i know i'm kinda dumb to buy mac...why not fujitsu? yeah..becos they say that it can run on 2 OS(operating system) and it's highly preventive of virus...i bought it. i dunno why i'm so gullible to believe that gurl.. argh! i kinda regret it now. but nevertheless...what's done cannot be undone. i'll just have to live with it. argh!

well i put my sub nick for msn as 'macbook' i think..and my best fren(one of the few good friends i hve) actually put a wet blanket on me. argh. that's like...i know what he meant. He meant well that why mac cos got a few cases including nic's got prob. what batt leak la..or the intel chipset not compaitable la..wat wat la.

but...since i bought it..you should just say..oh cool..nice.. instead of like..lashing everything out to tell me how bad it ws when i actually bought it. even if he said that...he should at least, add up another...comforting word.

in retrospect, i learnt abt how u should speak so you sounds caring. eg. i hit her quite hard....

den councellor:' well..she'll be pretty ok..u see..."

that...although sounded as if you're trying to care..but..that is like brushing the client off..like..dun bother me..what;s done cant be undone..just know that she's ok.

so...what my friend said was...' since u bought it, just use lor.' i dun exactly rmb but the gist is there..it's like..that tone of..it's not my prob... we're just mere acquaintants.
yes i admit that i din consult him but merely put it as my subnick.. i guess i should not be judgemental abt his preference of friends or anythingrelated to it...and i supposed that he's busy and therefore din see it. but still...ask what's the situation first before considering tellng me the bad stuff. and its like..he told me on that day i bought my mac somemore! that's like...aarrrggghhh!!!!*pulling my hair off!* *lia gong!*
but talkng abt acquaintance.....our friendship dated back to like when i was sec 3 or 4...it's quite disheartening to hear friends u knew so long to talk to you i that way. i'm not trying to use this blogger media to bring my unhappiness or any bad feelings to him but...after i've attended councelling...i realised something...it's ok to say it out..it's ok to cry.

i tot i was a strong person...becos i've seen so many situations before(presumably) and i dun tear that easily. mommy taught me how to be strong. But after last week's session, i realised how hurt i was when i talked abt the topic 'friend'. i even teared.. that's like so embarrassing?! in frot of my 2 good friends(presumably, dunno how they feel)

ya..so i just realised how i should pple now... not to treat them as my best friend but just close friend. not good friend but close.

pple reading it might think that i'm being so rude..or someone who dun treasure them..but...it's an experience that i had tht sort of made me do that. it's not that i dun want to..in fact..i want to be close best friend...etc...but this world's harsh.

as long as i treat pple with good heart, they'll noe. and if pple treat me with good heart( or sincerely) i will know and treat them the same way.

so whoever out there feels that some one treats u good, u of course should treat them good too. but reserve some in case they backstab u in the future. or..if they treat u good, beware of the motives.

butto make it clear, i'm not any like the later.