today's a bad bad day. I saw frankie and i asked him about results...den he said it's up on the net. so i decided to check my grades after sch.

today was a councelling class, so as usual we had a role playing session. and so coincidentally, lyn was my client again. i think i'm not good at councelling cos lyn is so serious about it and for me, i take it as a normal thing. and i'm trying my best to jot down impt notes as an observer( which apparently i always cant do it properly. i feel so indebt to lyn cos i was her observer and she's the councellor and i'm supposed to write alot of stuff of what she said. i'm slow. i cant catch the fast words.)

ya becos she's so serious, she poured out her innermost feelings. i was quite appalled by her reaction. i mean..this is good cos she gets some feelings locked up, released. but i tot i was a greenhorn to councelling still.(although i'm very good listener and 'councellor' muahaha!)

and yea...true feelings came out and i panicked, insearch of absorbable material.

i tried to salvage it but..yeah...it din work cos 1-time's to short and 2- i tried to be a smart alec. argh!

twice!!! twice!!! and it happened with me!!! how embarrassing for me to face this. cos i would think i caused her to reveal her true feelings till that point. and i tot i was some kind of a 'jinx' cos it's twice!

well..i shall see the next time when lyn is councelled by sam. haha!!! and see if the prob lies with me or not. i'm too....serious? lol! dunno...hope it's a session to bond our friendship and not a session to drift us apart.

so yeah...after sch, i went to check out my results... i felt relieved that i din fail my exp psych. but i'm....i felt lost when i seee 'n/a' for my anthro. that means i failed..right?? and meredith said that i have to retake it..and i've to pay extra 1500$ for that.

1-time wasting

2-money wasting

3- embarrassment

4-extra brain cells dying

5-destroyed my plans for my future. i had it all planned out for my student mapping!!! damn it!


i'm very sad and i kept thinking abt it when i was walking to the bus interchange. and how am i going to face mom when i meet her at taka for lunch.

well...it din take long to steer away from that sad thot...cos i was reminded of 'reframing' from Tim's lesson. But...when i told her about giving lyn that duck fridge magnet, she got furious..and said that the duck was our collection and she wanted it back so much that she kept reprimanding me.

i almost cried....probably of the result and the session i hd.. but...stil...anyway

iahve to find means and ways to get it from her

sorry lyn..will compensate you with another gift~