oh yesterday went out to celebrate yh and hansong's bday. that was the wierdiest celebration ever had! seriously! this can say to be bad and good. good becos..we celebrate for them. but too bad hs's on guard duty that day. and yh...sigh..dun talk about him.
bad...hmmm..i'll explain later..but first..2days ago, i've asked if yh's free so that i can tell him about my co. and prod and mktg plan before we head down to meet up with hwee.cy and weijie. but then...being a very
Good pilot, he flew away. in another words 放我飞机。he stood me up! he said that he just woke up at 3 plus..and guess what time i'm meeting him? 330..so i tot he'll come straight from home.. but in the end..i couldnt wait for his reply, i called and to my greatest horror i've ever encountered, he said he's at Sim Lim square! woke up late was oready nvm...but what was the most wretched thing i hated was..he din reply me and wanted me to call. The climax of my fury was optimum when he told me he's at sim lim. he said he had to settle some stuff... sigh..i dunno what kinda stuff was he talking about but i presume that that's impt...
to listen when cy came..and din come down to join us..instead..she waited for us... i dunno what was she thinking- prob she din want to disturb us when i was talking abt impt stuff..or she did that to 'hint' to me that i should stop and join them in finding a place to celebrate. i dunno..seriously.
that's why i say...
nv trust guys. they dun rmb things that are not impt to him...hello! i
know this is not impt to you but at least give me some respect. i've always been in the clique..but i've nv once felt as if i belonged to the group. So i told him abt it..and i couldnt convince him..sad case there. but i guess i'm still a greenhorn in speaking.. i need to brush up my skills in effective communication. sigh... yeah... he was reluctant cos what i was occupied was the distracted look in yh's eyes and his movements. sad case..i guess being a psychologist would be a sad thing for me becos i read into things
too much and understand human behaviour too much..
ya..so..i brought the heavy bag of demo kit and ended up....not using it...what a waste..well..who asked me to me so cheap. knowing that there would be no result and still..nvm
..experience counted! well..they were not interested.. How sad...
Oh..den we went to cineleisure XinWang to eat..it was a horrendous meal.. hmmm i guess, yesterday's not a really good dayfor me. Ordered curry chicken noddle and it was a normal meal my mom can whip up better than them. the nai cha奶茶 was ok.. :(
Well..
cant help being a sociologist, i observed and notice that..the pple sitting infront of me-yh, cy and hwee- were talking and enjoying the moments among themselves...not me and weijie though.. esp..yh..he enjoyed talking to cy..or was it..both of them? best friends of course.. i dunno.. i can sense that i'm always the odd one out.. i guess i was at fault some times. what was it then? let me guess....my communication skills sucked!? and i
always say the wrong thing? ya..that latter was quite a truth. i dunno why..i tried changing it...but... i got no self awareness. another pathetic feature of mine.... i dunno..but i think i'm the most pathetic person among the clique.
i cant be liek cy or hwee...who exude attractive personality that guys like. i cant..i cant act cute, i cant act thickskinned by asking, 'would you help me with this....' or 'no! i dun want it!' it's just not me to act weak infront of guys, act cute or even act bossy....and pampered...
seriously! i'm not trying to say that they are like what i said i'm not.. they are friendly and that's just their characteristics. it's in them..so it's born that way..not act out... i duno if they are or not but i'm sure they're not since their my friends since sec ....1or 2?
so we walked to taka..went to kinokuniya. and after which sat down and talked. that i took thechance to aske Cy if she had use my prod...she said she forgotten.. den i ask if she would want to exchange her other brand prod with me..cos that ican use as a demo. and that she can benefit from my prod... this would mean..give her no chance to say i forgot..sigh!!! what a disappointment when she rejected my best solution upteen times.... well.i was quite hurt by her rejections becos..i'm actually making a loss by offering her that solution. the real reason for me to do that was one simple reason. becos you're my good friend and i dun want to see my good friends to be using something that's harming them for 7 years! i cant imagine them to be contracting serious women's diseases 20 years down the road.
to S11 at orchard point? somewhere near the pizza hut. to chill and play cards...was quite dumb the game..but..at least...provided some entertainment...OH OH OH OH!!!!!!!!!!! while we were walking along the OG side..near Orchard point....guess who i saw?!?!?!??!!?
VJ Utt!!! yes!! Uttsada!
he's so good looking under his white cap! my god! oh..i din know that i was about the same height as him..lol!
when i recalled this back home..i should have stopped and asked to take a pic!!! and thru this..i can give him and his friends my NAME CARD!!!!! argh! what a wasted opportunity!
so we sat and it was a great opportunity for me to starttopic on my prod..and i SHOULD HAVE DONE A DEMO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i dunno..i was quite occupied.. by the reluctant atmosphere.. i told WeiJie about it..and he was quite resentful about mlm... obviously he had a bad trauma of mlm...he said he din like the idea of selling stuff to pple BUT! YOU'RE NOT SELLING! YOU'RE INTRODUCING HEALTH TO THEM! YOU'RE MAKING THEM REALISE THAT IT'S TECHNOLOGY THAT BRINGS HEALTH! IT'S A NEED! it improves health that is cheap and it protects our reproductive system that we hadn't been taking of!
din do demo becos of the feeling of' 'pls dun talk about ur prod here!' and ' oh u want to talk abt ur prod, i wont be interested cos i've heard enuff and i'm not interested'
How sad to think in that way!
they kept thinking that i' want to earn their money..HEY!!! PLEASE! IF I WNT TO EARN UR MONEY, I WOULDNT EVEN OFFER FREE TIX FOR YOU TO GO LISTEN TO THIS TALK ON SAT 28TH!!!!
But too bad..some i would say..unappreciative of what i've been trying to do..and some are too busy with their sch registration and camps. well..i shall find others.
like hwee said..all talk but no action.and talk is cheap.easy. yeah..she herself said that and she's not practising it! eg:
We chanced upon this road show at taka before we head down to S11. and there's a sales on sunglass. hWEE kept lamenting about how broke was she and she saw her future drowning in the huge amount of debts cos of loans for uni. well..she kept saying that...but when they saw those sunglass...guess how amny she bought? 2!!!!
i was quite appalled. they cost 30$! den i asked if she want to buy the pantyliner since i brought it with me and what kind of dumb ans she gave to shove me away to a corner?
she said she's penniless. money spent and nothing left. i was burning inside. i was seriously angry with what she said. why cant she just spend $7-8 to buy health not onlyfor her but her family full of females? i was shocked and felt disillusioned about friendship. We-weijie, cy and me- jokingly said that why would she bear to buy the specs and not the padS? they are not demons!? it's no longer viewed as a deviant becos it's a female stuff.. my god!
such mindset, i feel pity for those who thinks that way. i pity you and look down on you.
i did manage to control how i felt like hollering at her and make her know that she's not being a friend to me and what she's not doing what she had been harping on. thank god. if not, situation would be awred.*bad*
oh she said that guys should be trusted..was it her? or did she say that? eh..i dunno..but somehow..i rmb clearly that she said something bad abt guys..i dunno what......dun push any blame on me if you tot i said so..when i said i dunno.
she bought yh a tie i think..i mean..that was some shared pressent..but..i tot she wanted to give him a belt? but that's secondary..what's pri focus was... she decide and she bought a TIE!?!?!?
has anyone had any idea that buying a tie signifies something? that means you like that person..and being a 'manipulative' you, you wishto tie him down with a nice tie gift so that he'll see u as his only one and that he will not like other girls..or other girls not like him.
this is an universal ans. i'm not sure.
but i duno...i can 'sense', prob wrong, that yh likes hwee..or cy? cos he enjoys talking to them and not me. i'm not trying say anything. and he seemed to be exceptionally happy when cy or hwee jeers at him or hit him or talk to him..i dunno...i'm not qualified to pass those judgement.. hey! what's blogger man!? it only express our views but not validate them!
and hwee..i dunno..i cant read her mind..she's erratic...sometimes this sometimes that...and cy..she got bf liao. haha!!
hmm..prob you'll ask me...'what you said above and waht you observed seemed to point everyting to yh, you like hiM? '
haha!! teh-teh! wrong!
i've nv like him...he's just like...a buddy in army. eh..no..i should say..ive been influenced by his army stories so much so that i've become his pseudo-buddy-in-army. hahaha~!eh..he always scold vulgar when msn-ing eh! i hate that lor. but..he's vexed i guess...so i just try to pretend i nv see those words. ya..i presumed that he liked hwee? but..it's just sepculation.... unless they themselves realised that..and i might be their cyber matchmaker. hahaha!
but i wouldnt want to be that. cos they'll blame me for being such busybody. in fact iam already by blogging these! hahaha!!!
