ya..today was my operation and it is totally like what anthro reading told me. In a hospital, they take away your culture by over dominate you with their own medical culture. it's authoritative, thats why by common sense..or by our inclinati0n, we tend to go with the higher authority. after all, you cant do anything to your teeth except the dentists right? so we sort of have to follow their instructions. after that, went to change...yes
they stripped u of yourculture...and what's disgusting was, they asked you t o stip your clothes and change into theirs! of cos in e tooilet! what wer u thinking? lol!
ya..i felt so bare wearingthat.....ewwww! and it's something like kimono that the clothes is over each other?adnyou tie the strings.... the clothe is basically larger than me and becos of that..i have to hold on to my front part of the clothe...cos it's revealing..argh!
ya..met this really young and studious looking doc..i think he's some kind of an apprentice? he looked as though he's still studying jc or 1-2 year uni! ya..very boyish! but he's explanation were clear and he looked experienced. whoa.
ya..and later on..this nurse came to me to 'spray' literally, into my nose. that is to prevent me from feeling the pain when they put the tube thru my nose into the windipe for oxygen. yes..it backslided and went into my throat...sigh..that's the worst feeling i can ever get!
soon the anaesthetic took place..and i felt my nose cold? or warm? but basically i dint have any feelings, felt as if i can breathe in vaccumm(is this how you spell it? i'm lazy u know) kinda diff i guess...
den i told you the anaes backslided right? that's when i felt i cannot breath! like i'm breathing hard in e water! still can breathe though(as if i'm in water).but becos the anaes make me felt as if my windpipe had swelled or i've got tumour in my windpipe...that made me breathed harder for air...trying to gasp while ican! haha!
but after doing that..i felt it was worst. so i just breathe normally..thru e super airy nose of mine!

right...so as part of the Nacirema(read it the opp) culture..i've decided to undergo this major surgery of my life!(it's considered minor to them though! keke!) yes! it's major i say cos i've never been anaesthetised(if theres such word) such that i go to sleep! argh! it was a painful experience!(not exactly until you read e post further down abt my current situation!) yes..before they put the sharp sharp needle into my left hand, they said, ' put her to sleep now?' 'ya, put her to sleep'

i was like.........OH MY GOD! what word they used! that sentence is so sensitive alright?!?!?! i'm not a stray dog or any other animals that no one wants, ok!?!?!?! i dun want to die!!!! argh! they should at least, i emphasis 'at least'!, said,' put the anaesthetic now?' or 'let her sleep now??'
sigh! yes! again...from anthro view, in an OTheatre, if the women(nurses!) are in the OT, and in additional a female surgeon, the women would expect alot from the female surgeon nott o say insensitive words. The surgeon is expected to be a female..and not say 'taboo-ed' words that only the men can say. yes..male surgeon are not being observed for these like the female ones. it' s a fact that they can say words like 'damn, shit, quick! give me the knife, give me the gauze...more..all at once...'
they will be deemed as demanding, not feminine...ruthless, insensitive...etc! however...the women will not complain if that surgeon is a male! *** probably they find the males surgeon attractive! hahaha! stereotypers!*** oh...and instead..they would follow his instruction....and even more, automatically dab away his sweat! i dun think the female surgeon are being treated that way..though they still dab..i think they are being requested by e surgeon. and they would do it unwillingly becoc they will findher demanding. unless the surgeon is not demanding..sensitive..and etc all the females could be...they might find her mor amicable..and treat her nicer.

yes, back to where we are, the anaesthetist jabbed into my meatless hand and now that i see my hand, there's 2 holes! yes!!! why 2? why not 1??? damn it! dunno how to poke! she's a female!!! * yes i emphasise that becos i'm one of those women i mentioned above! huahuahua!
so i felt as if i was possessed...hahaha!!! yes..cos it's excruciatingly painful. try it yourself if u dun beleive...and only if e top of your hand is meat less as mine! ha!
yes..so they say oxygen is needed for the anaes to take effect..but hmmm...the oxygen mask was..not like those mask where you see the O2 gas coming out. haha~ but the prob is!!! i dun feel any O2 at all! it's so warm..and i need to BREATHE HARD to TRY to take in the smelly O2 from the mask! argh...of course..they said before they are inserting a tub into my windpipe for the O2 thingey. it toook them quite sometime to start delivering the anaes..argh..................

Just like those movie, they inject u with some disease-containing fluid into your bloodstream. andyou can feel as if..the virus is attacking every bloocells of urs and how they disintergrate cell body and your tissues... yes..my left arm was excruciatingly painful! i thought i'm going to lose my arm becos i felt the virus was to powerful. it bit on tightly to my muscles and skin, and other viruses are den responsible for drilling holes into my bones! i felt that they are progressive. the start from my wrist..and it quickly established their empire in my bones until my upper arm. i felt weak...i felt no energy to fight against the evil creatures! it's painful cos of the muscle disintegration!
as soon as the virus caught me..i fell my vision blurred! literally~ those OT lights were big!!!! 8 altogether...3 of them are separated from the main5. yes...i couldnt fight against the stronger force on my eyelid. it's a feeling of over exhaust yourself when you're studying! but of course..a stronger one! so becos it was so painful..i STILL knitted my eyebrows after my lids were closed. i hear the anaes doc asking me to relax...and....slowly...i began...to...get...in..to...sleep...and... the..pain sub..sided...ima...gin...ar...ly.

yes, when i woke up to my conscious in my mind(but still unconscious totally, cos ifelt sleepy!) i could....wait...it's that stupid nice nurse who gently slapped my face to wake me up! argh damn her! i needed my sleep ok? i planned to replenish and make up for the past few days' short sleeps.
so i replied back by TRYING,PRYING my eyelids open and nod my head...to indicate i'm still alive, thank god for that! so i went back to sleep again..haha! but that moron nurse..ya..e same one who stood beside me called out to me again. hahaha! 'call out' to me sounds as if my soul was somewhere floating around..refusing to come back into my body! lol! well it's true though..i felt as if i'm floaty and i'm sleepy...
but one thing nice abt her...she put my hair back...into a proper position(though it didnt help much! haha~) ya..reminds me of some show where the guy put their gf's hair back..haha!
so..i slept fo quite sometime...untill 1150, the nurse took away my, this time not a swear word but a literal word..." bloody gauze"! it's dark in red and below is my dracula foto~haha

oh i woke up from my beauty sleep becos of the kid that cried for every little things he felt and hear and watsoever? and that mom of his is so..immatured ? i dunno wat sh did to him to make him CRY?? she said sorry...well..obviously right? she must have wanted to look at his teeth an that worsen his pain! it was never ending~ ahhh!!
i woke up to eat my pain killers becos e pain is coming in! and that few moments..the kid didn make any cries..but after i changed my gauze and ate my pills,the loud hailer sounded agaiN!?!! but why now??? i want to sleep ok???
and i slept from 12pm to 1 15 i think..it was not a fulfilling one. cos of that arggh, kid?! there's 2 and luckily one went away...sigh...i keep hearing him and i couldnt put my conscious to unconscious and i was in fact awake while sleeping...i even know my mom came and looked at me..and before i took my medicine i knew she took e pic of me.
yes..during my sleep.the nurse came to take my pressure... another pain to suffer..it was so pressurizing that i felt numb and painful at the same time when the thing puffed up. urgh! 2 times summor!

finally the doc(who explained to me e details and the one who looked very boyish) came and used the super duper laser beam( in actual..it's just a very bright light used in e OT but ony 1 lightbulb) to shine into my mouth. well..he said i'm ready to go. argh..and he asked me to get off e bed and walk to him..that was to proof i'm not giddy when i discharged.

ya below are e pics but
WARNING: these pictures could be disturbing to certain people. if you have any weak heart pls refrain from watching the pictures below.* damn.i forgot what is the standard warning on e show! *

sign off 1144pm 9th may